Dear God,

Heavenly Father, I would really appreciate it if you could send someone to Elkhart to fall in love with my house and buy it.  It would be so much easier to save for a new house where I live now if we didn't have to keep paying on the old one.  I know I am asking for a miracle, but I believe if it is your will it will be done, I'm asking that it be your will.

I know I don't have a job yet and I guess I could be more out going in getting one, but I feel as if that still would not be enough to save for the new house at a quick enough pace.  And that is another reason why I would like to sell the Elkhart house.

Help Matt and I be able to entertain ourselves and not go shopping when we don't need to.

Help me to secure a job that I will be good at and pays decently so that I don't have to ask Matt to transfer money to buy groceries. 

Thanks for our tax return, we will be putting it to use on some debt that we have and are doing awesome in paying off.  It is great satisfaction to pay off a 4 year loan in 1 1/2 years by over paying on it. 

Thanks so much!

Amen!

You may not know...

I'm not a very confidant person so looking for a job has been tough.

I don't like calling people on the phone.  They can call me and I would love to chat it up with them, but for some reason I don't call them.  I feel like I am bothering them. Thus this reflects in that I don't even like calling for a pizza or take out.

I hate to drive.  Most people actually do know I don't like to drive, but they might not know why.  I have no depth perception (again something most people might know) which affects the way I drive.  It makes me a weird/bad driver, because I can't tell how fast a car is moving toward me in relation to how fast I am going, thus affecting my judgement calls.

I love my husband, but sometimes I just want him to be quiet.  (Something you may not know about him is that he is a real chatter box when it comes to topics he wants to talk about and he feels he can share them without being judged.)  This also includes keeping his music down.

I have an art degree but I feel like I am not a true artist.  I appreciate art, but it's like people expect me to know all this great stuff about the field and I don't.  I have experience in a lot of different fields, but I am the master of none.  I am also very critical when it comes to my own work.

I used to be in photo classes, but I feel like I am not a great photographer.  I also don't take a lot of pictures.

I watch the Disney Channel.  I get teased for it, but I like it.

I like cooking shows and have liked them since I was a kid.  However, I am not a good cook.  You think I would be better because of all that I watch, but I'm not.  I am however a pretty good baker.

I am a saver.  I tell people I don't have the money to do something might just mean I might not have it in my checking account.  I feel like a bad friend because of this, but now that we have a mortgage and rent and I don't have a steady job, it's kind of a good thing.  We have money to survive on.

I didn't want to buy the last car that Matt bought.  It's still a tender topic for me, so that is all I'm going to say on that.

I miss My Family. My Friends, My Church.  I didn't want to move, but it was a good move for Matt, so we did.

When I'm tired I get grumpy.

When I'm hungry I get grumpy.

I don't like to look people in the eye.  It's very hard for me.  I always fear that my lazy eye will wander away and I'll look like a mental patient or something.  Trust me, I get weird looks when one eye is looking at them and the other is looking to the side.  This happens a lot when I'm tired or looking over the rim of my glasses.

I have a lazy eye.  I had surgery on it when I was 3 years old to correct it and strenghen it, but it still acts up.  It is also the main reason that I have no depth perception (can't see 3-D).  3-D movies can give me headaches.

I don't like to shop.  I can enjoy it for about an hour but then my ankles/feet start to hurt.  I think I have weak ankles or need shoe inserts.

I love my pups, but I can be jealous of them at times when Matt is cuddling with them and not me.

I sometimes don't feel like the dogs are mine since technically Matt chose them and adopted them.

I refuse to watch certain movies with Matt (we watch a lot of movies), so I don't like it when he won't tell me what movie he put in the dvd player (which he does every time).

When I get stopped my a train in my car.  I count the cars on the train.  It was something my mom told us to do when when we were kids and it happened to her. She told us so that we would be entertained while we were stuck there, but I still do it to this day.

Haircuts

So I mentioned to Matt that we both needed to go and get our hair cut.  I come home today find him digging through the closet for his clippers.  We had talked about me cutting his hair before, but we never attempted it because I had never done it before. 

Well it took me an hour or so, but Matt's hair is shorter and looks better then before, except for one little oops behind his ear.  I still have all my fingers and Matt both of his ears, so I think I did pretty good for my first haircut ever. 

Except we did not get my haircut and there is no way that Matt is coming near my head with scissors.  Although he has mentioned that he loves my long hair, so he probably wouldn't want to come near my head either.

Last Year Ramblings

So Yeah...Haven't been on here for a while.  Mostly due to the fact that my laptop is running extremely slow these days.  Hopefully I can make the transition to using a desktop again.  Unfortunatly the desk top I have inheirited some how blacks out at any given time.  Matt says the motherboard is going on it.  We have plans for buying me a new desktop next year once we get our finances in order.  He says possibly with our tax return. 

I don't know about all of you out there, but to tell you the truth my tax check has never been very high.  Infact I have had to pay state the past 2 years.  (About $10, so not really that frustrating, but still).  This year will be the first year I file as an independant individual.  This should be interesting.

It definately has been a crazy year.  It was my first year at my job.  I've learned a lot, yet I still feel like a newbie there.  There is so much that goes on that I only ever have exposure to one portion of it.  And let me tell you I have stories to share about it. 

Then it was also the year I got married.  I loved our wedding!  There were some moments that day I was so overwhelmed.  But in the over all scheme, it was a good day.  I married the man that I love and that loves me.  Don't get me wrong there is definately an adjustment period to living together, but we are working more and more together towards our goals. 

Man, I actually miss writing on this thing.  I always enjoyed following my friends lives by reading theirs and I still do, but somehow I just never sat down long enough to write anything about myself or comment on other peoples sites.  I really want to, but don't.  I think it has something to do with that I feel like I'm stalking some people and completely ignoring others.  And it could be that the people I want to chat with don't even want to chat with me, they are just being polite.  Who knows.  I just know that the people who really do know me, know I care, but am a terrible friend when it comes to keeping in contact.  Please forgive me of this fault of mine.

I miss my friends, I'm having a difficult time stirring up the energy to balance my married social life and my social life.  Plus it is the winter time, I don't like to drive, and I really don't like to drive in the winter.  I become a recluse.  I have vacation time this year, maybe I will take some time off just to spend with some friends.  I know my old roomies would love to see me more, as I would them.  We shall see.

In Christ,

Rachel

Yes, I used the word 'Freakin'

Wedding plans are coming along.

We had the church already booked before we even got engaged.

The reception hall has been reserved and the hotel rooms blocked.

We decided on a photographer.

We have pretty much decided on a DJ.

We are tasting one more cake before we decide on that.

My dress is ordered and is very beautiful.  (I look pretty amazing in it too.)

Bridesmaid dresses are getting ordered Saturday.

Let's see what else....Oh yeah!

I'M FREAKIN ENGAGED!!!! And I Love the man I am going to marry!